I can not decide what to do for 2009! This has been the single most frustrating part of going without sugar--deciding whether to continue going without, or if I should loosen up a little, or if I should splurge on all of my favorites that I missed this year: Oreos, donuts, cookie dough ice cream, cookie dough, cookies, cheap store bought cake, hot chocolate with a mountain of whip cream, M&M's, Almond Roca, chocolate bars, etc.
I don't know what to do!
Of course I would love to splurge, and I know I deserve it after a year of giving up all of my favorites, but then again, why would I do that to myself after I've worked so hard to wean myself of these sugary sins?
I've been asked all month, "Why don't you let yourself have sugar in moderation?"
One of the reasons I quit sugar to begin with is because I have no concept of eating sugar in moderation! One Oreo has never meant one Oreo! I don't eat single bites of ice cream at a time. I clean out the entire pint in one sitting, albeit, nice and slowly, savoring each delicate cool, creamy mouthful. I really miss ice cream.
Here are the reasons I hesitate to go back to sugar, even just for one day:
- I feel so wonderful now without any sugar!
- I have a lot of energy consistently throughout my day.
- I have more confidence than I've ever had in my life.
- I don't ride the sugar high roller coaster.
- I don't think I'll be able to control myself.
- I believe sugar was my addiction (both physically and psychologically).
- What good reason do I have for reintroducing sugar back in my diet? It offers me nothing but unhealthiness and guilt.
- I wouldn't be able to be an anti-sugar advocate if I was consuming sugar. (I can't stand those who preach one thing and do another...)
- If I eat sugar again, I will feel guilty and bad about myself because I know sugar is wrong for my body. Knowing this ahead of time, why would I eat it?
Still considering my options and really trying to reflect upon what is important to me. I think if I decided to eat sugar again, I would be very jealous of all of you who have told me you are going to go without. On the other hand, going without sugar is quite a lifestyle change....
To be continued...